Actually sometimes you just feel that you’re totally lousy. I don’t know why but I just dislike and find it difficult to approach people I don’t know well. In a sense it’s not very healthy. It’s like sometimes it’s just a simple thing to do, but you delay doing it and even hope you need not do it because you are just simply too shy or embarrassed to say something?
Today my friend asked me to help do something but I didn’t. After a while I felt a little guilty because I didn’t help because of my lousy character where I just don’t like approaching people I don’t know, even when it’s just something simple.
I should really change, but how do you change something that’s fundamentally part of yourself for the past twenty two years? Sometimes I just think I am just lousy.