It’s quite rare that I post two posts in the same day, and it is even more rare that it happens consecutively twice, with only 1 day break in between. But I guess when you have something off your chest you would like to say, you should just say it and make yourself feel better. Plus I know of friends who care, and ask my best buddy Jia Hao about what happened to me. And anyway there is no need to hide anything. It is something that people go through, and they emerge stronger and better. Plus they understand themselves more, so it is a good thing.
Anyway I was quite affected over something recently, which I guess anybody would be affected by it. Before I say anything regarding the subject matter at hand, I would like to first clarify that whilst when it affects me, I do feel really down, but usually the period of time when I feel down will soon reverse and then I’ll feel much happier and positive. Great music really helps, and also friends to talk to, who encourage you and show you pretty photos to remind you of your dream. Thanks, you know who you are.
I guess most people would have already known that I was in a rough patch during the new year of 2010. There was a person and we had issues. It was really complicated, but we went our separate ways. I guess it is always good to remain friends, but sometimes that is not really the case. Awkwardness sets in. Feelings of confusion, doubt and many other things. But that’s just a brief background. I’m not going in depth because then people would start judging and saying things, which is really unfair to everyone.
Recently, this friend of mine got attached again. I thought I would be fine and cool with everything. But I guess I wasn’t that strong after all. Sometimes it takes time. No matter how many times I tell people that I’m alright, there are times when you just don’t feel right. And that moment of weakness, you fall and you wonder what’s going on with your life. The funny thing is that you know few months down the road you’ll look at this and laugh, because it happened before.
But you still allow yourself times to feel upset and hurt anyway. Maybe it’s part of the process. And it is always the healing that is the painful part for the wounds isn’t it?
Anyway the purpose of writing this is to come to terms with it, and just walk on without needing to carry this like a burden of worry. People do move on, and it is time to do so. After all, as the cliche goes, “You’ll meet someone better”. Which I agree, for it is not that the new person is better than the old, but you know more about yourself, so you’ll find someone that is more suited for you.
And there are more things in life to worry about. At this stage, it is probably, what else other than school can I do? What type of jobs should I apply for? How much starting pay can I command? Is it possible to work overseas? What about dreams for the future? What would you like to achieve?
On a side note, I’ve been feeling rather paternal lately. I don’t know why. Maybe it’s the age you just start to change your priorities and think about the near future, like in 5 years time?
It’s time for everyone to move forward and be happy. Be happy that life gives you whatever you have right now. Be happy with the person you are with. Be happy with the friends that surround you. Be happy for everything.
Be happy. Even when I may feel a little weird around you, it’s something normal. 祝福你。:)