Music: IU & 2AM’s Seulong – Nagging

Recently keep listening to this song, and another one, IU’s Good day. Will sic that another time. This is a duet, duh, about the nagging that goes on between couples.

Here are the translated lyrics:

Stop being out so late
Try not to drink so often
You don’t listen to me like a 10 year old child

I can only laugh
Who are you calling a child?
Really, I can only laugh

You don’t know how it feels for me to say these things
You don’t know that I only want to say nice things to you
Should I stop? Let’s stop

From one to ten, they’re all words for you
But since you don’t listen to me, it’s only nagging to you
Let’s stop, let’s stop
There’s not even enough time to just love

A story told by the heart, not the mind
Stories that I can’t help but tell you even if you hate them
Let’s stop, let’s stop
I only hear your nagging

Are you eating at the right time
Are you staying away from girls
I want to be beside you all day
That’s how I feel
If I could keep you in my pocket
I’d be really happy

Our story where we can only be two
A story that would make someone laugh if they heard
Should I stop? Let’s stop

From one to ten, they’re all words for you
But since you don’t listen to me, it’s only nagging to you
Let’s stop, let’s stop
There’s not even enough time to just love

A story told by the heart, not the mind
Stories that I can’t help but tell you even if you hate them
Let’s stop, let’s stop
I only hear your nagging

Even if you glare and try to scare me
Your face is just too cute to me
Are you going to keep this up? (You) I can’t hold back anymore
I really might get angry

A story that wouldn’t be told if we were to give up love
The sound of my heart that thinks only of you
Even if you’re angry, even if you shout
Your nagging is just so sweet to me

A story that can only be told if we love
But since you don’t listen to me, it’s only nagging to you
Let’s stop, let’s stop
But trust my feelings

Source: Korean Splash

Music: 丁噹&周華健-突然想愛你

突然想愛 我已不是小孩
卻像首次告白 只想被你愛
突然想愛 最坦然的坦白
像赤裸的腳踝 舒服自在

活過來 我都愛
突然明白 之前的都不算愛
我都愛 活過來
責無旁貸 也包括你的不可愛

總是突如其來愛 還讓人眼界大開
原來一切值得期待
總是突如其來愛 像河流進了大海
原來應該這樣 存在

突然想愛 最溫柔的覆蓋
草地等到花開 信手拈來
突然想愛 我已不是小孩
卻想被你溺愛 只想被你愛

活過來 我都愛
突然明白 之前的都不算愛
我都愛 活過來
責無旁貸 也包括你的不可愛

總是突如其來愛 還讓人眼界大開
原來一切值得期待
總是突如其來愛 像河流進了大海
原來應該這樣 存在

愛是耐心 愛是勇氣
愛是默契 不言而喻
愛是上癮 愛是不可理喻
我還不瞭解的事

總是突如其來愛 還讓人眼界大開
原來一切可以忍耐
總是突如其來愛 愛之所以成為愛
我在就為你的到來

總是突如其來愛 還讓人眼界大開
原來一切可以忍耐
總是突如其來愛 愛之所以成為愛
我在就為你的到來

Music: Haunted by Taylor Swift

This songs reminds me of the Standard Chartered marathon. It played during one segment of my run since I was listening to my iPhone while running. Somehow the beat and the lyrics stuck; well only a few specific lines. I have no idea why this line in particular struck so deep into my mind: “Come on come on, don’t leave me like this, I thought I had you figured out”. Kind of like a really sad thing to say. But it gives everyone something to think about. Sometimes things do go the way we wouldn’t want them to, but we still have to keep a happy heart and a positive mind. 🙂

Enjoy the song.

You and I walk a fragile line
I have known it all this time
But I never thought I’d live to see it break

It’s getting dark
And it’s all too quiet
And I can’t trust anything now
And it’s coming over you
Like it’s all a big mistake

Oh holding my breath
Won’t lose you again
Something’s made your
Eyes go cold

Come on, come on
Don’t leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Something’s gone terribly wrong
You’re all I wanted

Come on, come on
Don’t leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Can’t breathe whenever you’re gone
Can’t turn back
Now I’m haunted

Stood there and watched you walk away
From everything we had
But I still mean every word I said
To you

He will try to take away my pain
And he just might make me smile
But the whole time I’m wishing he was you
Instead

Oh oh holding my breath
Won’t see you again
[ From : http://www.elyrics.net/read/t/taylor-swift-lyrics/haunted-lyrics.html ]
Something keeps me
Holding onto nothing

Come on, come on
Don’t leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Something’s gone terribly wrong
You’re all I wanted

Come on, come on
Don’t leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Can’t breathe whenever you’re gone
Can’t turn back
Now I’m haunted

I know
I know
I just know
You’re not gone
You can’t be gone
No

Come on, come on
Don’t leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Something’s gone terribly wrong
Won’t finish what you started

Come on, come on
Don’t leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Can’t breathe whenever you’re gone
Can’t go back
I’m haunted

Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh

You and I walk a fragile line
I have known it all this time
Never ever thought I’d see it break
Never thought I’d see it

Music: Manyageh – What If – Taeyeon

If i were to go
If i were to get close to you
What would you think?
I don’t have the courage.
If you were to go,
If you were to leave.
I don’t know how to send you away
It keeps hanging on my mind
I know i am a fool and can only watch you from afar
Your heart may look away from me…
And so we could even become strangers
Just like a fool i can’t even say that i love you because …
We’re afraid the wait that comes upon us
After we meet will be painful and sad.
If you were to come
To come near me.
What would i do ?
I really don’t know
Because im like a fool.
Even though i know looking is all i can do
Your heart may look away from me
And so we could even become strangers
Just like a fool i can’t even say that i love you because….
We’re afraid the wait that comes upon us
After we meet will be painful and sad
Because i’m like a fool
Even though i can’t say i love you
We’re afraid the wait that comes upon us
After we meet will be painful and sad.

Music: Crystal Kay – Time of Love

This is the theme song for “Juunen Saki Mo Kimi Ni Koishite” that I wrote about yesterday. I thought the song is rather nice, so just listen and have fun.

「ねぇ 止まったままの君の時計ベッドの上で 見つめてる」
( nee tomatta mama no kimi no tokei beddo no ue de mitsumeteru )
I keep staring at your dead watch up on the bed

「抱きしめられた 雨に濡れてこの想いは あの時のまま」
( dakishimerareta ame ni nurete kono omoi wa ano toki no mama )
My feeling is still the same as the moment when you hold me under the rain

「ねぇ 私たちは 急ぎすぎて 余裕がなくて」
( nee watashitachi wa isogi sugite yoyuu ga nakute )
Hey, I think we’re going too fast and we don’t have time to spare

「愛さえも ぶつけてばかり」
( ai sae mo butsukete bakari )
We love each other but we keep hurting each other

「君の心が止まったことにも なぜ気づかずに」
( kimi no kokoro ga tomatta koto ni mo naze kitzukazu ni )
Why didn’t I notice that your heart had stopped

「好きなのに 好きだったのに」
( suki na no ni suki datta no ni )
Even I love you, loving you like this

Ref:
「もう一度 やり直せるのなら」
( mou ichido yarinaoseru no nara )
Once more, If I can start over again

「思い出が消えてもいい」
( omoide ga kiete mo ii )
It’s okay even all the memories disappear

「初めて出会うように 愛されたい 愛していたい」
( hajimete deau you ni aisaretai aishiteitai )
Just like the first time we met, I want to love and be loved

「もう一度 君に会えるのなら 今度こそ離れない」
( mou ichido kimi ni aeru no nara kondo koso hanarenai)
Once more, If I can meet you again, this time I won’t let you go

「そう 時間は動くの 壊れてた時計も きっと The time of love」
( sou toki wa ugoku no kowareteta tokei mo kitto The time of love)
The time that is ticking from a broken clock, it must be the time of love

「ねぇ 雨が降ると 傘の中で 君は ずっと 左手で 抱いてくれたね」
( nee ame ga furu to kasa no naka de kimi wa zutto hidarite de daitekureta ne )
The rain is dropping, under the umbrella you always hold me in your left hand

「時計が濡れるのも気にせずに」
( tokei ga nureru no moki ni sezuni )
Without worrying about the time that is ticking

「そっと暖かく この恋を守るように」
( sotto atatakaku kono koi wo mamoru youni )
I want to protect this gentle and warm love

「もう一度 やり直せるのなら」
( mou ichido yarinaoseru no nara )
Once more, If I can start all over again

「何もかも捨ててもいい」
( nanimo kamo sutete mo ii )
It’s okay to loose everything

「そう 今はわかるの」
( sou ima wa wakaru no )
Yes, now I know,

「何よりも大切なものThe time of love」
( nani yori mo taisetsu na mono The time of love)
More than anything else, the most important thing is Time of Love

「この気持ち 諦めないで ただひとつ 信じたい」
( kono kimochi akiramenai de , tada hitotsu shinjitai )
I won’t give up this feeling, I want to believe this one

「君がそばにいれば それだけでいいから ずっと」
( kimi ga soba ni ireba sore dake de ii kara zutto )
For me, having you beside me, that’s more than enough

*Jump to Ref.

The end of the challenge

I finally completed 42.195km. The challenge I laid out to myself to complete it once. Not for the medal or for the Finisher shirt, although I took pictures of them proudly, but because I can. Because I completed 22km during my ASLC as a trainee to become a 3rd Sgt. Nowadays it’s called Specialist Cadet. Fanciful name but the pride is still there.

I told myself I would complete 42.195km this year. If not, when? That’s what I asked myself. Next year when work begins and I don’t have the luxury of having time to train? Or when I get married and have kids? Or when I finally have more time for myself – when I retire? So I had to do it because I was running out of time. Pun intended.

The run was immensely satisfying although there were some down moments. Upon reaching there I discovered the baggage deposit area was confusing and crowded. Where was the start line for the queue? Why did it suddenly branch into multiple streams? And where were the toilets when you needed them? By the time I found the toilet, the flag off had begun. I missed the opportunity of starting at 5pm with all the people aiming for sub-6 timings.

I didn’t know where the point of entry was for the sub-6, and in the confusion I just went through a gap in the railings and joined the crowd. And we moved to the starting line for our staggered “flag off” and I began to run.

The experience was something you had to experience for yourself to be able to truly understand what I mean. The rush and the excitement of having 20,000 (I took this number from the papers today) people running with you is something you cannot buy anywhere else with 45 dollars. Although it meant the starting was congested and I couldn’t run at my usual speed, it was a very nice feeling to be running a marathon. The adrenalin probably ensured I felt none of my usual knee pain after running 10km.

Passing by orchard road while running on the road was a whole new experience. The road was blocked and for the first time, we pedestrians were the priority! Going through a small stretch of tunnel made me sweat for the first time and then we ran through Chinatown, past the familiar places I have always been to. The speed was still slow due to many people having enough stamina at the start.

We ran past the Singapore Flyer, the nice place where I spent a nice 30 minutes with Pei Lin. Then past the F1 pit stop where you see all the famous names at their respective “cabins”. Jensen Button and Lewis Hamilton, and a whole lot of other people. Past the Helix bridge. I originally thought (silly me) that I would return and run on the Helix bridge, but it was just past. Run past only.

Across Nicole Highway where people start to separate due to the more lanes and hence space. Was nice to run at a nice speed, past the cheering volunteers who never failed to smile and ask us to continue running. They also clapped on the way. Into Ford road and then ECP, by then I saw some people taking the Deep Heat equivalent and smearing them on their thighs. “Not me”, I told myself. I ran 22 km before as a young corporal, and I will run 22km before I even think about taking the cream.

Into ECP where the people took bananas and ate them. I didn’t naturally. I loved the 100 plus that occured every 2 water stations. Ice Mountain is for some form of hydration, and I never drink an entire cup. But 100 plus, well that is like a magic potion for my thirsty tongue. I can always run more after hydrating on either liquids. Past 15 and beyond, still happily running. “I can do it”, I tell myself. The feeling was great.

Past 20 and I saw the 22km marker on the other side of the road. Soon, I told myself. Before the end there is a scanner to scan our chips. Won’t people go to the other side and cut corners? “Integrity”, I told myself. And there’s a scanner right at the turning point. Shrewd. Were the organizers trying to catch cheaters who cut 200m off the 42.195km route?

22km. Yes I did it in about 2hours 30 minutes. Not as fit as when I was a corporal but it is good enough. Wondered how far Pei Lin ran already in her 21km. 23, 24, 25, 26. Sick of the ECP route. Is it going to end soon? 27km, my legs are tired. My feet are sore. My thighs and calves are hard. My abs are tight too. 3km more of running, and then you can walk. But I couldn’t take it, I started walking at 28km. And started my affair with running and walking, running and walking again.

The route past 30km and out of ECP was horrendous. The sun was hot, and it made my head feel hot. I desperately needed water, but where was the water? Every 3km away seemed not enough when the sun is this hot. And the view is of construction sites. Desperately needing a morale booster, it certainly felt like the organizers cheated me of a fantastic view.

Nearing Marina Barrage, I saw people walking just 200-300m away, in the opposite direction. Damn. In the hot sun I have to walk and u turn before reaching the Barrage?

I happily accepted water and drank a whole cup of it when I got to water points. 2 cups of 100 plus when there was 100 plus. With that much water, it felt wrong to run. Walking across the bridge at the barrage, I stopped by the railing to stretch. What a beautiful place Singapore is. Walked into the building. Finally there is shelter. Sat down and did a groin stretch. It felt wonderful.

Out of Barrage and I wondered, where is the route going to. I forgot whatever was on the map already. Past foreign workers dorms and again you feel like the view sucks. Walking seemed like a good option and running started to make my heart feel a slight pain. I had to stop. Life is more precious. So I walked more.

Onto ECP and the lanes for the 21km and the 10km merged. Where’s Pei Lin? Would I see her, I wondered. Saw an ambulance coming. Someone must have collapsed. Walked till the end of the ECP stretch and realize we would walk past the baggage collection area. Another u-turn where you feel sad to see people this ahead of you.

Past baggage collection and past Esplanade. 2km more, shouts the marking. I have run and walked a total of 40km. You can do it! I ran until my heart said STOP. I walked. Turning to the side of the Padang, people started to run. Was the finishing line there? No. The people ahead cheated my feelings.

I walked. I ran. A little more. I walked again. The ang moh at the corner showed us his medal and told us to run. People ran when they saw the camera ambushing us before we even can see the finishing line. I continued running. This is it. The final stretch. Big signs showing 100m more, 75m, 50m, 25m and so on. I overtook many people. I can still do it! I overtook as many people as I could to step across the board with the timer showing 6:00. Since I began late, I ran a nice timing of 5:44:43. Still sub-6! I got what I aimed for and I walked quite a fair bit.

My legs were already cruelly tortured and begging for mercy. No rest, I told them. Walk to collect the finisher tee and the medal. The 100 plus that I couldn’t finish because I had enough water inside my stomach. And the cruel walk back to baggage collection. Remember I mentioned baggage collection then the 2km more marking? Still the distance is lesser than 2km since I’m not walking by the running route. But still probably 1km+ away. It was insane. My legs were dying.

My right calf had a cramp on the downwards escalator at Esplanade. The person to the left saw and ignored me. Reached the bottom and the cramp hasn’t subsided. I limped out and grab the side of the staircase until the cramp lessened. Slowly I walked in the hot sun to the baggage area. Curse the weather.

Baggage collection was fast and swift. Within 5 seconds they found my back. It was on top of the pile which my bag belonged to. Nice work sorting out the piles into smaller piles. Called Pei Lin to find out where she was. She didn’t pick up cause the line didn’t connect to her phone. But I saw her upon putting down the phone. Met her friend Joanna but was too tired to talk much. Pei Lin has nice friends.

We talked about our experiences and complained about our tired legs. Although I never met Pei Lin before I signed up for the marathon, I am glad we had something in common. We walked to Marina square. I was limping. 42.195km is more than 21km! I had abrasions too.

I’m glad I finished my marathon. I’m happy I did it. I’m thrilled that I attempted to challenge my body and I succeeded. It’s about the distance, not whether I can run the entire stretch or not. Having only clocked 15km max since 2005, I think I did great. But I don’t want to do it again because I already prove, to myself, that I can do it. I might take part in 21km in the future with Pei Lin. It’s do-able, and probably nice to challenge my timing.

I love the Singapore Marathon and I am glad I paid 45 dollars to attend this special event with fellow Singaporeans and marathoners. This is 45 dollars you cannot spend anywhere to get the same experience unless it is at another marathon. It is 45 dollars worth spending, every single cent of it.

The front of the medal.

The back of the medal. It says 42.195km.

The front of the finisher tee.

The back of the finisher tee.

I finished 42.195km. Have you?

Marathon tomorrow!

Tomorrow’s the big day, 42km! I haven’t really been training. Wanted to do a 20km last week but the weather didn’t permit, and I didn’t have enough time to do so on other days. The furthest I have gone for training is 15km! I would really have to endure more tomorrow, but I know I would be able to do it! Guards specialists ready to strike!

It might be a long journey pushing me to my limits, but it’s not something I haven’t done before. Being in Guards already pushed me to my limits and I am happy that I overcome those challenges. Just like how I overcome obstacles like Guards PT, Coastal Swim, fast march, Charlie Mike etc, I am going to finish the 42km by trying not to stop and run all the way my legs can take me. It’ll be tough but it’ll be fun too.

I’m already looking forward to it! Check out my photos of medal and finisher tee tomorrow! 🙂